How do I write?

I will be honest, I don't actually know what to write sometimes on these blogs. I feel torn between writing emotive essays off the cuff, or placing a lot of time and energy to craft every blog. On one hand, I feel self-centered and solipsistic if I continue to write just about myself all the time. Yet if I place so much energy, so much consciousness into every essay, will it be real. Will it reflect who I am? So I think I am going to begin putting in entries that I have already written in a journal that I own. I used this journal when I spent six months in New Zealand, I wrote in it when I got back, and I intend to put it to good use during the Israel trip. The essays in there are raw, honest outpourings of my spirit. Some is written in poetry, some in prose.

Now for anyone who is wondering if I'm going to write with less emotion now in my journal, I do admit that I am not putting everything from my journal onto here. Therefore, my journal will maintain an authentic essence, while my blog will still reflect a summary of my feelings, insights, prayers etc... Please feel free to comment on anything.